Here it is the last week of December, 2010. I have a tradition during this last week of each year that I would like to share with my readers. As I look back over the past year and write down what God has taught me, I ask Him to begin to show me what He wants me to learn in the coming year. Sometimes, I am given a Scripture, other times a word, sometimes nothing at all... It's always accompanied by time in the Word and a deep prayer time.
This year, as I look back, I am pondering in my heart where I thought I was "going" when I was on my journey through life in 2010. Was I following Him, others, or my own desires? Some days, I was clearly following the Spirit of God, but others seem to be clouded by my own interests and desires.
I have come to the end of 2010 realizing I need to close two businesses and open a new one! I've come to realize the value (yet again) of a bible teaching church and heart felt worship. I also have noticed the limited amount of Christian friendships over the past year in my life. Relationships, a church home, and provision in my business had been severely lacking in my life.
I must say, I have felt my love for the Lord diminish. I don't even really know how it happened, but I found myself praying less and less. Several disappointments regarding answers to prayer or no answer to prayer left me angry at God sometimes. Some days, I felt myself running in circles with no direction. I decided to stop praying for myself and only pray for others for quite a while. It's amazing what a lack of communication does to a relationship...
I have come to ask forgiveness for walking on my own without heeding to my Lord's direction. I wonder if there are others out there who are in the same position right now? Have you wandered down some paths that were not in God's will for you? Did you pray about it, receive a big "NO" and do it anyway? I am so grateful for God's willingness to forgive and restore. Aren't you?
In 2011, I will be pressing on! There will be a lot of changes occurring that I am already aware of... Transitions seem to be the "word" God is giving me at the moment. There will be loss, change, and additions to my life that will require me to trust God in new ways. I am not sure who I will meet, where I will travel, what issues will come, but I know my Lord will be in it all and all of it will be for His glory!
May you trust in the Lord with all YOUR heart and not lean on your own understanding...